One Year

On this day, one year ago, I started HRT. How has it only been a year?

It feels like I’ve gone through so many phases. Questionable clothing choices. The struggle to update all my information, everywhere. Appointment hell. Personal growth, and occasionally personal backsliding. Learning how to explore passions and socialize with strangers. An emotional rollercoaster so intense that calling it “second puberty” could never be an overstatement.

And somehow, also graduating and starting a full-time job.

I still have things I want to accomplish, and progress to see. And yet, I’ve done so much. Not without crashing out an equal amount, that’s just part of the package. It’s easily been the most intense year of my life. But despite all that, one thing has remained true.

I definitely made the right choice.

In the days before I started, I was nervous about what was to come:

What if I’m wrong about all of this? How do I tell everyone?

What if it causes me more mental stress? Where do I go after that?

What if I’m focusing too much on the medical side of things?

But it turns out, that I know myself. Even in perilous times of great uncertainty, I knew that something wasn’t right. I had known for years that there was something off about how I was going through life. And when I discovered the truth, it felt like the last puzzle piece.

On the first day, it felt good. Within the first week, the background noise of stress and discomfort quieted. I didn’t even know that wasn’t supposed to be there. And with every month, I’ve felt more and more comfortable in myself. It’s the best decision I’ve ever made.

So, I’d like to share a gift — my favourite song. Since high school, it had spoken to me for once unknowable reasons. In some ways, the signs were always there.

This girl is just getting started.

Kungs vs Cookin’ on 3 Burners - This Girl on YouTube